Disappointing (not in every way, but sometimes)
I’ve been having nightmares. And I’m not even sure I can call them nightmares. They happen at night, but I’m never asleep. Dang me and my highly developed imagination!
I don’t normally curse my imagination. After all, my imagination allows me to escape any mundane, irritating, or painful situation I’m in. It let’s me explore new worlds and meet new people. I feel very lucky to read a book and become completely immersed in the story being told.
But, there’s always a but, sometimes my imagination is more of a curse. Like at night. Especially when my fiance is out of town (thankfully he’s back now). I recently read (and reviewed) Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children. I mentioned I found it scary. And it was. But, even worse, it’s still scaring me! The monster in the book has carved it’s way into my psyche.
I see the monster whenever I get up at night. And I have a 9 month old daughter who most assuredly does not sleep through the night. That means I get up anywhere from one to four times a night to take of her. And I am certain, every time, that the dang monster is in my home. It’s on the stairs, or it’s in the room across the hall, or I hear a creak and I know it’s about to come in to the nursery and tear us apart.
I’ve started turning lights on when I get up to nurse my daughter. It helps. Then on the return trip I have to turn the lights off and make my way back to the bed. I always look at my dog (he’s also a chicken) right before turning off the lights. If he is sleeping (which he always is) then I know no monsters have sneaked in while I was with my daughter. Then I quickly walk (I do not run, what if I trip? then I’m a sitting duck for the monster) to the bedroom and jump in to bed.
Once my body is completely under the covers I can breathe a little sigh of relief because, as everyone knows, monsters can’t get you when you’re under the covers. Then I cuddle up a little closer to my fiance and feel my heartbeat slow, always certain I’ll never fall asleep before Daughter wakes up again. Then I sink deeper in the mattress and let the comforting darkness of sleep keep me safe from all the monsters.